Hiya Guys!

So, it’s been awhile since I’ve done this. School has been kicking. My. Ass.  But anyways, i wanted to give a few personal and site related updates.

The first: i am no longer a journalism student at Gonzaga. I switched my major to broadcasting. I honestly didn’t think i would like it as much as i did, but my god i love doing it.  And i honestly think i’m pretty good at it too. The intro level classes had to put on a game show for our final project, and i got to direct it. When it was over our professor said it was the cleanist show he’s seen in the 16 years he’s been teaching. If you’re so inclinded, you can watch it right here:

It’s not exactly “great”, there’s a few things i wish we had done in hindsight, but i have to say, i’m really, really proud of what me and my class did here.

But there’s another reason i’m not doing journalism anymore, one that may affect Ludophile Lab: i just didn’t enjoy it anymore. See, for a while now I’ve been not writing while i was in school and saying it was burn out, but the fact is, it has been a pretty long time since writing was fun. Don’t get me wrong, i still love games and talking about them, but i think my constant lack of content and equally constant unhappiness with what I’ve been putting out has simply lead me to one simple truth: i don’t want to do this to the extent i thought i did. I don’t mean i’m giving it up. But i don’t think i want a real career in games journalism anymore. And i’m ok with that. So i’m pivoting Ludophile Lab into an actual blog. I’ll writing when i have something to say because i do still love games and talking about them and having conversations about them. but i’m done putting on the pretense that this will be a showcase for my work.

As for IndieGamerTeam, more or less the same. I’ll write reviews when i have something to say, but for now i’m just going to stick to editing and helping other people find their voice and their audience.

So, that’s all for now. Hopeful i’ll post again before too long.  Peace!

School is Finally Done

So, as of today, Friday December 8th, i am done with class. I still have finals Tuesday through Thursday of next week, but this is it for the quarter. And with that, i’m done with Community College. In a week or two, i will officially be a college graduate. Granted this is only my AA, but god dammit, i’m proud of myself. Back in 2013, when i first started college and ended up flunking out, i never thought i would make it this far. I never thought i’d end up going to a university; i never thought i would have a future of any kind, let alone one as bright as mine is looking right now.

This also means i’ll be able to spend some time playing games and writing over the next few weeks too! I’ve got two or three games to review that i haven’t been able to torch over the last three months, so it’ll be nice to clear those out. The only question now is, will steam get through all the updates in time for me to play something before my break is up….i kind of doubt it.

The Games I’m Thankful For 2017

I wasn’t sure if I was going to do another article like this one, but last years did pretty well and I’ve finally got enough time to do some writing, so I figured “why not”. So here are a few more games that either had a profound impact on me or were the catalyst for something great in my life.

Kingdom Hearts

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Kinda sucks i didn’t talk about this one last year so i could make an easy “when is KH3 coming out” joke. Meh, fuck it: WHERE THE FUCK IS KINGDOM HEARTS 3

I moved in with my mother the summer before I started high school. I wasn’t expecting too, I thought it was just going to be a visit, but that turned out not too be the case. Because she had to work I had decided to bring my PlayStation 2 with me, and since I knew I’d probably be spending a lot of time with the sister I hardly knew, I decided to pick up a game for her. Something she could play if she wanted, and something I wouldn’t go nuts having to sit though. I remember hearing good things about this odd little Disney/Final Fantasy cross over and it seemed like the perfect game for a young girl. At the time, I’ll admit to my great shame, Disney meant “princesses” and “princess” mean “boring girl stuff”. I figured the Final Fantasy stuff would balance out the Disney stuff so maybe it would be tolerable.

The game was….not quite what I was expecting. For one it was good. Like, really good. Secondly, it was way more difficult than it had any right to be. I’m not sure how I beat the final boss the first time and my sister….well, I ended up playing most of it for her. But the game did it’s job. We and her bonded a lot over it, and when Kingdom Hearts 2 came out we spent a lot of time playing that one together too. Along with the band Coheed and Cambria, Kingdom Hearts may be the reason me and my sister got along so well.

Volchaos

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Volchaos isn’t really a good game. But it is the game that proved to me that I was doing something right with this site, and it cemented the best friendship I’ve ever had. I had been following and talking via twitter to Cathy from IndieGamerChick.Com for a while. The day after her birthday last year (I remember this because a happy birthday post I made was the catalyst for event), she had decided that I was cool enough to be actual friends with. She friended me on Facebook, and we started talking more on their. When I told her I also did game reviews and stuff, she asked me to send her some of my work. I did, and about 15 minuets latter she messaged me saying “yeah, look, I’m going to be your editor now”. I know that sounds harsh but, it was much nicer that that. She had helped me with a few things I was writing at the time, then asked me if I was getting review codes. I told her I wasn’t and that I didn’t really know where too start with that. A few minuets latter she came back with a code for Volchaos. A friend of her’s developed it, and she went to bat for me to get a code. It was the first game I had gotten a review code for, and I had only gotten it because someone saw something of worth in my writing. Someone saw value in me succeeding in the field I wanted to be in. That was the moment any and all doubt evaporated: I had met my best friend for life. But for fucks sake Cathy, you couldn’t have gotten me a good game? God, friendship over. :p

(On a related note, you can read that review HERE)

Call of Duty: Black Ops 3

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Guys, look, i know. I’m supposed to be better than this, you expect more form me. I know. It’s embarrassing to admit, Let’s just get though this like that awful political speech your drunk uncle is going to give. We can do it together, we just have to push on and persevere.

I’m sorry. I’m sorry i’m sorry i’m sorry i’m sorry. But, I do have to be honest here. If you’ve been reading my stuff for a while, you know I freaking love Overwatch. Even though I haven’t played it in a while (god, this quarter fucking sucks.) I’ve been keeping up with the news and it’s one of the things I’ve missed the most since school started up again. Well, truth be told I wasn’t always the kind of guy that would have liked it. See, once upon a time, I didn’t really care about multiplayer. At all. But when I got my PS4, the only one in stock came bundled with Black Ops 3. I never imagined I would play it, but I wanted that PS4 so damn bad. That was i’d be able to start this site and focus on more topic games, where as with my last site it was pretty much whatever I could get my hands on. Well, being that I was (and still am) poor as shit, I ended up running out of games to play pretty fast. So, one day I decided to just bite the bullet and try Black Ops 3. And to my great surprise, I had a lot of fun with the multiplayer. I was even pretty good too. It wasn’t uncommon for me to be in the top three for my team, or even for me to be #1. That ended up turning me from a “multi-player is a wast of time” kind of guy to a “if I dont get at least one good game of Overwatch in during this break i’m going to FUCKING KILL SOMEONE” kind of guy. I’m not 100% sure that’s a positive change, but it is a change nonetheless.

Well, that’s it for this year folk. Have a happy (and safe, I need you fuckers for the page views) Thanksgiving.

Personal News

Hey Folks! I was hoping that the next time i could carve out some time for the site it would be for some more fun stuff like…you know….talking about games….that thing i started the site to do in the first place. But, sadly this last quarter has really been kicking my ass. Hell, to be honest the only games I’ve even played in the last few months has been Clicker Hero’s or Bejeweled. But, with that does come some good news: I’ve been excepted to Gonzaga University. Starting in January (unless i reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeally fuck things up), i will be pursuing a degree in Journalism. I wish i could have posted about something other than “nope, still not talking about games”, but fuck it, i’m excited about this, so i wanted to make a post.

Lab Notes 19: Where Have I Been?

Hey guys! It’s been a while since i posted, and i just wanted to give a bit of an update.  So the big thing is that school’s started again. And that means things have slowed waaaaaaay the hell down. I have to wake up early, and i’m there way longer than i wanted to be as my classes are so spread out. By the time i get home all i want to do is crash, which hurts my sleep at the end of the day, which makes getting up harder, which makes me want to crash more when i get home which….i think you can see how this goes from there.

So, yeah. For the last week and a half i have not been nearly as active as i wanted to be. I dont even think i’m going to be able to keep up with my saturday streams….the things i started IN CASE school got in the way of my posting. Funny thing that.

But there is some good news. I applied for graduation and, unless i truly fuck up this quarter, i will be a college graduate this December. It’ll only be an AA, but that’s better than nothing. Plus, i’m meeting with some university people next month, and i have a good feeling i’m going to get in.

I do have a few reviews planned over at IndieGamerTeam, though, and i do intend to keep posting stuff here as well. I’ve got an editorial about hype i’ve been planning on writing up, so there’s that.

Introducing my Saturday Streaming.

Hello everyone!

So, I am very much aware that i’m not as active as i want to be on this site. I was aiming to post at least 1000 words a day, but as time has gone on I’ve found myself less and less inclined to do that. With school and everything, i just needed sometime to myself. It also doesn’t help that i was pushing myself to keep a semi-professional schedule without any of the benefits of doing so. I’m not getting paid and i rarely garner the attention of those i want to work with, so the stress about my time between posts ends up getting the better of my and i kind of just say “fuck it” and stop.  I really don’t like that, and i am going to try an do better from here on out.

On top of simply making an effort to write more, i’ve also decided that i’m going to start doing a Saturday Stream on my twitch channel. This means that at least once a week i’ll be doing something related to the site, while also allowing me to just kind of chill out and take a breather. Now, i’ll be the first to admit that i’m not the best when it comes to live streaming, but it is something i want to get better at. I recently did a charity stream for Indie Gamer Chicks Birthday, and i’ll probably try to do another one next year too. So getting better at this kind of thing would mean a lot to me. So join me at 1:00pm Pacific Time this Saturday and hang out, have a chat. It’ll be fun.